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Confessions of a Problem Seeker

My Lifetime Journey From Busy Brain To Loving Heart

Confessions of a Problem Seeker is a raw and unflinchingly honest memoir of one man's midlife reckoning and search to find his soul. As a childhood shaped by trauma and illness gave way to an illusion of adult success and purpose, marriage, fatherhood, entrepreneurial achievement, the author finds himself grappling with the unshakable feeling that he has lived a life shaped more by fear and survival instincts than by inner truth. Triggered by divorce, professional loss, and a deep inner emptiness, his search for peace leads him to psychedelics and a spiritual awakening as he begins to heal old wounds, including the lingering shadows of his Holocaust-survivor parents. He offers a compassionate invitation for others, particularly those in the second half of life, to question who they really are beneath their busy identities and to reclaim the joy and stillness of an authentic, present life.

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Excerpts

Five threads of a single, unflinching story.

Confessions of a Problem Seeker is a deeply personal account. Select a theme to read a passage from the memoir.

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As a child, I didn't connect the actual horrors of the Holocaust my parents endured to our lives in New York. But the trauma and pain was there; it was just unspoken. The atmosphere was dark, but I had an awareness of love. Or, more accurately, care for my survival. Their fears and grim view of the world were understandable but not helpful in developing a secure psyche. Life was not to be enjoyed but survived. Joy was not to be trusted. I carried an unconscious desire to ease my detached mother's traumatic pain and make my brave father proud, which stunted my ability to form a secure identity.

On Transgenerational Trauma

Praise

Endorsements from therapists, physicians, founders, and champions.

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A profound and gritty human journey of reclamation. Reading it evokes that rare elation that only comes when another human is fully open.

Jessica Flynn

Psychotherapist, LMSW

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A gripping, radically raw life story of reinvention. It speaks to striving professionals who have mastered the game, only to wonder why they're still running.

Tom Rogers

Founder of CNBC and MSNBC, media industry leader and digital pioneer

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An inspiration for how, through spiritual inquiry and awareness, we can befriend all of our inner parts and find profound healing.

Richard C. Schwartz, Ph.D.

Founder of Internal Family Systems, author of No Bad Parts

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I found myself laughing at his self-deprecating humor one moment, and wiping away tears the next.

Mariela Glandt, M.D.

Endocrinologist, Founder, Owna Health

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An honest and transformative memoir. Howard's writing style is a joy to read.

Loch Kelly

M.Div, LCSW, author of Shift Into Freedom

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Howard Steinberg writes like the funniest guy at the recovery meeting: open and wounded, yet somehow still optimistic and full of light.

Brian Loew

Founder, Inspire Health

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More than a book; it's a gift to the type 1 diabetes community and a reminder that no one walks this journey alone.

Aaron J. Kowalski, Ph.D.

Chief Executive Officer, Breakthrough T1D (formerly JDRF)

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A courageous and luminous memoir. Steinberg shows the path through trauma can open into freedom of the heart.

Kathleen Stansberry, Ph.D.

Associate Professor, Elon University

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A testament of resilience, self-discovery and the spirit to keep going after more than 55 years with this condition.

Gary Hall Jr.

Olympic Swimming Champion (5 Gold Medals) with Type 1 Diabetes

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Candid, thoughtful, insightful, and fully engaging, a compelling read from start to finish.

Midwest Book Review

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